Friday, July 29, 2016

// and me //

i want a place of my own
a place where peace hangs in the air like incense
and my books are lined up on the shelf
a cat on one windowsill
a row of plants on another
sunlight coming through
or raindrops coming down
A little fridge and some plastic tumblers
all this
and more
and me

i'm sorry i've been absentee- i just haven't had a ton of thinking capacity. i will be back, eventually. 

Saturday, July 16, 2016

// liebster tag //

 greetings and salutations everyone! I really do apologize for my absence here- I've been so busy and will continue to be for a while but I am going to try to post more. keyword try. Anyways, Anna tagged me for the Liebster Award(does anyone know why it is called that?) so here we are! She had very fun questions:)

The Rules of the Game:
1.) Link back to the person who tagged you.
2.) Answer the eleven questions.
3.) Tag 11 bloggers, and let them know you tagged them. 
4.) Ask your tagged bloggers eleven questions.

1.) Tell us four names (if you don't know the answer to any, just tell the ones you do know): one that your parents would have given you if you were the opposite gender, one they considered once they knew your gender, one you would choose if you got to choose your own name, and one you would NOT like to have.
I don't remember- I knew once :O Maybe Aaron? After my uncle? That sounds potentially correct haha. I know they considered Allison- and I think Fanny. Like, what? Fanny? I think it was a great-aunt or something idek. Um I actually like Nina(although Hannah I don't really care for just because it's so mainstream- seriously I think every other Christian girl from ages 15-20 is named Hannah.) Something foreign would be pretty though. I wouldn't want to be named Courtney or Taylor or anything like that. They sound too high school locker, makeup, 'hanging with bae' aeropostale shopping, high ponytail, kind of girl which  is NOT ME lol.

2.) If you were to adapt one of your favorite stories, what story would it be and how would you tell it? (movie, musical, webseries, play, book, etc?)

This is a stinky question how am I supposed to answer this?! So many. But 'The Rope Trick' comes right to mind. Maybe if there was a film more people would READ IT ahem.

3.) Tell us four of your favorite words.

hm... anguish. melancholy. glisten. phosphoresce. 

4.) What is a life lesson you have learned in the past year?

That God's will is not a mystery- just trust Him and do your thing. He'll work it out or put an end to it if it's right/not right- so why waste time worrying when you could be trying to move forward? Still learning this but it's important.

5.) Who is your favorite secondary character in a book you've read recently?

Um the most recent book I've read was actually the three in Lewis' space trilogy. I loved all the characters(or hated them, whichever). Mr. Bultitude in 'That Hideous Strength' kind of won my heart I must say!

6.) What are five of the books on your TBR list right now?

Ho-hum. Miss Peregrines Home for Peculiar Children,  Shogun, The Far Pavilions, Katia and The Great Gatsby.

7.) Tell us one talent/skill you have, and one you'd like to develop.

Um singing? I guess?? I want to try and develop all my talents, my musical and philosophical bents are my main focus though I think.

8.) What's the best joke you've heard recently? (Awful puns are highly acceptable!) 

IDEK. It's just really funny ok. I'm sorry. I couldn't think of a joke and this was the only actually funny thing on my Pinterest humor board. Everything else was either evil and bitterly sarcastic or deeply ironic truths.

9.) Share a quote from the book you're currently reading.
I've only just begun Clive James' translation of 'The Divine Comedy' by Dante. Had to skim and when my eyes hit this bit I remembered it striking me so here it is.
'...'Your soul is crumbling from the needless blight
Of misplaced modesty, which is false pride
Reversed, and many men by this are swayed
From honorable enterprise...'

10.) What song is stuck in your head right now? (Or just share one that's been bouncing around recently if you don't have one right now.)

My head is like a haywire radio on some weird shuffle setting. Which is to say I have no idea what song has been stuck in my head. My sister (and I)just wrote a song to perform at our ladies conference and since we literally got it ready in three days that's been floating about quite a bit 😂 

11.) What do you want your life to be like when you're a little old lady?
Aw. There are so many versions of that, I'll see if I can do three
1. A wise, experienced old singer who can look back and be contented in the lives she's touched for God and now can help others.
2. A respected author who's philosophical work has impacted intellectualism and been able to fight for the Truth on it's own ground- to clear the spring's origin, so to speak.
3. And because I am actually a great lover of angst- 
a sad, shrunken recluse with plants, a cat and many books. A weedy, lovely wild garden, an empty mailbox under a hazy, cloud-brushed sky. A wistful gaze at a past that never had a future, and unshed tears for feelings she never felt. Klimt's 'The Kiss' hanging, postcard size, on the wall and a worn Bible beside the bed. And a late resolve to do something, anything, to touch the world somehow. 
lol Old me, I love your pathetic life. Anyways. (we aren't going to talk about the crazy route. I would never end up a crazy old lady, never. You believe me, right?)

I tag Shandi, OliviaAva, Abbie,  AbbyMelody and IDK whoever.

Oh wait I need to think of questions. Hm.

1. If you could see a cloud shape, and then have it come to life as a cloud thing, what object/being would it be? (I'm now struck with an intense longing for a cloud beast. ugh. Imagine how misty and cool it would be to touch.)
2. Which- library or museum. haha.
3. coffee or tea?
4. Favorite old/classic author
5.Favorite modern author
6. What kid's movie do you loathe and why?
7. My sister is watching me and she said 'what do you do before you go to sleep because nobody counts sheep' so yeah answer that. (bonus points if you do count sheep haha)
8. Do you like bumble bees? Or are you scared of them, since you know, they sting and all. 
9. If you have a calendar, what is its theme? (i.e. Cute Puppies, Vegetables, Tractors, Landscapes, etc.)
10. Do you think tall dark and handsome is overrated? 
11. Your feelings on hipsterism as a trend (like, oxymoron or oxymoron?)