You know how, in nightmares, there often is one bright thing
one good, natural thing amidst a landscape of freakish, surreal horror
and how that one thing in its goodness, it's normalcy,
only serves to make the rest more vibrantly sordid?
my life, now, is a nightmare
and I think-I feel- I know-you are the one good thing.
and even though you are the one bright spot in this murkish dream,
I don't want you to have to exist in its tainted chaos.
It will be darker without you, it's true
but somehow I think that will be better.
I think knowing you are out there, in the light
will be a comfort in the dark.
I would rather you be free of it
and I, to suffer alone.
aegri somnia- a sick man's dreams
xxx tomorrow is my birthday and probably-possibly-potentially- my 100th post!! xxx