Thursday, April 21, 2016

// burden //

sometimes the weight of humanity
(including my own)
weighs down my little soul
until it practically sickens me.

If my finite self can be so
crushed with the futile tragedy
of the depraved rejectors of their only cure

how on earth or in the heavens above
must Christ have felt
He who knew no sin Himself
who wasn't only a reawakened dust-mote
but the All Encompassing, bound in a body

how must it have felt to have
 all the massive sin of everyone, everywhere
for the entire span of time
on His shoulders?

Perfect holy shoulders,
streaming blood.

How could they not break
under just one breath of sin?
How could he be willing to
walk beside man and his fallenness
let alone bend under it?

If we could comprehend-
Oh, for the grace to ever truly
appreciate and feel it-

we would be a different
people. Our burden would be
a different one, more profound
and yet lighter.

How can we point our noses and
play at church
when God let sin touch
Himself for our disgusting selves?

written January 11 2016
xxx I've been debating over posting this for a long time...  I don't want to sound judgmental, especially towards the end, because believe me, I'm talking to myself. Always talking to myself. Here it is, anyways. xxx


  1. oh wowsie, I never thought about it this way before.

    1. I don't remember exactly how it struck me at the time, but it was an epiphany for me too! It really helped me tbh!

  2. Hey from the anonymous that occasionally comments! :) I didn't find this piece judgmental at all, in fact it's what I'll remind myself this coming Sunday. And I remembered a verse (I forgot where) describing God's people as smoke in his nostrils and another one describing them as lukewarm water. I think that's a continued example of His grace, which is shown throughout scripture in countless more ways. Also, as a side note, I was reading Consolation of Philosophy by Boethius for homework and I really really recommend it (not exactly related to this post, but I thought you would like it). I hope you don't mind that I thought you would like it, it's just that it has poetry and prose and speaks truth and light in such a beautiful way. It was written by a Christian who was falsely charged and exiled. I have learned so much from it. Also your blog name, Ponderous Thoughts, is another reason why I think you'd enjoy it. Phew, sorry for the long, rambling post!

    1. Wow thank you:D The fact that despite us, He loves us is so crazy. Oooh I'll have to look that up, it sounds AMAZING! I want to start reading more of that sort of thing and never know where to find them!! DON'T apologize I love it!!!! Hearing from people on my posts makes me so happy >D

  3. This brought tears to my eyes. The style you wrote it, the understanding ... I am in wonderment. God has given you talent, my dear.


    1. Wow... thank you so much!!! That means a lot <3 I pray I can always use it for Him!


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